ok, so my daughter, Rilee was in her second NBHA today. She is in the pee wee's. She normally wants her daddy to help but he is gone to work a college rodeo in Uvalde. (God we miss him!)
but we had mema and papa there to video and of course, when we got home I had to watch the video. It just makes me sick to look at myself. So tonight I started a diet and walked around the block twice. Im going to try and at least make 2 laps everynight that I can.
soo .. Ive just got to have a bragging moment right now. and kind of a "confession" time for me, I guess you could say. Ive got feelings that I need to say about my husband but for some reason, its very hard for me to express to him. The only feelings I can freely express are angry/crabby ones
I love my husband very much. And you dont know how selfish I feel for saying that due to one of my best friends going through some ruff times. But I dont think I could ever make it without Mark, no matter how much or how little we differ. We do have our differences, what couple doesnt, but for the most part Mark and I are soo much alike. I am very proud of him and I just beam with pride! I do not feel complete without him. He is a great father and is the bestest friend I own. (or have, lol)
I just feel like sometimes I am letting him down in some way. I want to make him the happiest man alive and I feel like I fail terribly.
So, part of my reason for starting this blog is so Mark can check it and see how or what I feel. I have a problem with verbally showing emotion when it comes to my problems. I know thats hard to believe for some of my friends but, what the hay .. whatever works, right?!
Why?
3 weeks ago
