this ones for Jennifer~ muahh

So, its been what, a month and a half since my last post?

What have I been up to? Im sure you have been asking that for awhile now.

Back in October, I took a job working at the same company as my husband. Barnett Well Services. Its a wonderful place to work and I love going there everyday. Ive been making decent money (although Id like a raise) and it has allowed me to buy myself (with help from my great hubby) a new saddle and a used (like new) trailer. We've borrowed trailers and Ive borrowed hubbys saddles for so long now and we are due something nice for ourselves.
I dont have much else to say right now .. Im WAY too tired even though I did get off work at 4:30

a Happy post!

THis is a happy post because I had TWO pitchers of beer at Hooters for a celebration dinner for my NEW JOB!!!

Just wanted to say to Jennifer .... I LOVE YOU and keep your head up! It will all work out in the end .. just keep that in mind

Do you hear that?

Its peace and quiet!

My kids are away for the afternoon so I can clean and get some things done ... dont know which is worse .. cleaning or kids screaming all day?! lol

Ok, so 2nd day went off track!

Ok, so I went off my diet today. I had a great chocolate slim fast shake for lunch and for dinner .. well, lets just say, I stuffed my face at Posados ... and I mean literally .. Jennifer had to wipe crap off my chin! I didnt even know it was there


I didnt get to walk either because we got home so late .. and Jennifer is sitting in traffic on 35 because of a wreck .. dont know what happened there. I just know shes okay! and wasnt involved .. just stuck in traffic.

come on cold front!!!

Ok, so we are supposed to go to the fair on saturday. YAY for Rilee . Anyhow, the cold front is coming in slower than they expected but, surely itll be here by saturday, right?

Anyone already been to the fair and can give us some *must see* things?

Why?

Why do I have to be so honest?
Why does it have to be so brutal?
Why does it have to hurt people?
Why cant my mouth just shut ..
or my fingers quit typing?!


I have a problem with voicing my opinion, no matter how honest it is. Most people cant handle that and think that I am a b**** because of it.

I believe people get the wrong impression of me and dont really get to know the *real* me

Jennifer Abbott is who inspires me!!

Jennifer is who inspired me to start blogging .. shes an amazing person .. Happy Belated birthday!!


check out her blog at http://www.runhorserun.blogspot.com

My day today .. maybe its my kick starter motivation

ok, so my daughter, Rilee was in her second NBHA today. She is in the pee wee's. She normally wants her daddy to help but he is gone to work a college rodeo in Uvalde. (God we miss him!)

but we had mema and papa there to video and of course, when we got home I had to watch the video. It just makes me sick to look at myself. So tonight I started a diet and walked around the block twice. Im going to try and at least make 2 laps everynight that I can.

soo .. Ive just got to have a bragging moment right now. and kind of a "confession" time for me, I guess you could say. Ive got feelings that I need to say about my husband but for some reason, its very hard for me to express to him. The only feelings I can freely express are angry/crabby ones

I love my husband very much. And you dont know how selfish I feel for saying that due to one of my best friends going through some ruff times. But I dont think I could ever make it without Mark, no matter how much or how little we differ. We do have our differences, what couple doesnt, but for the most part Mark and I are soo much alike. I am very proud of him and I just beam with pride! I do not feel complete without him. He is a great father and is the bestest friend I own. (or have, lol)

I just feel like sometimes I am letting him down in some way. I want to make him the happiest man alive and I feel like I fail terribly.

So, part of my reason for starting this blog is so Mark can check it and see how or what I feel. I have a problem with verbally showing emotion when it comes to my problems. I know thats hard to believe for some of my friends but, what the hay .. whatever works, right?!

Alright .. givin my hand at it!

Ok, so after reading Jenn's blogs .. I finally came to the conclusion that blogging might be my own free therapy. It will give me a chance to jot down feelings and thoughts at the moment ... and that will help me "feel" like Ive gotten some much needed stuff lifted off my shoulders.

sooo, bare with me .. Im no professional blogger by any means .. but here goes nothing!

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