When it rains, it pours!

so I finally get a job .. to help pay bills and put back in savings .. Ive been working a month and guess what all has happened?

The elec bill was given to us late, therefore we basically have $400 worth of elec bills due at the same time

Mark needs new tires

Alternator went out on Marks truck

Tanners birthday is tomorrow

and the kids' school starts on tues the 26th (extra $520 a month)

and our Anniversary is the 25th!

I dont want anything else to happen .. but ya know what they say, when it rains it pours!

Is that too much to ask?!

Is it too much to ask that if you or someone has a problem with me, to come to my face and not behind my back? I am to the point that I cannot stand the FEMALE gender whatsoever! I have never (ok, maybe a few times) had a problem with expressing my feelings. I may hurt yours in the process but I dont hide or sugarcoat jack crap... so why cant someone return the favor and treat me the same? Is that too much to ask?

I am brutally honest and straight forward .. please be the same with me

RAIN RAIN ~ Blech

3:30am, I am awakened by a 4 yr old saying "momma, its funderin out dere" .. so I let her crawl in bed with me, she didnt bring her pillow so we shared one or two. Its thundering (loudly) and lightning .. couldnt tell if the wind was blowing but you know when your kids come to you, wanting you to be their "protector" ... how in the heck can you do that when the thunder scares yourself so bad that you jump each time it cracks? Ha Ha . Im sure Rilee was real impressed!

Needless to say, we both fell back asleep not long before Marks alarm goes off. So after staying up watching Nastia Louikin get her gold medal .. it was at least 12:30am before I fell asleep. Then the "funder" and Rilee .. Marks alarm .. Im ready to crawl back in bed

Joys of being a gramma .. a horsey gramma that is

So, last week my 4 month old colt, Crash, had an accident of some sorts. We didnt know what happened but Marks mom hauled him to the vet. They stitched his eye up and sent her on her merry lil way home. A few days go by and his walking gets gradually worse. By sunday evening, his walking was so bad that he pretty much didnt know where his legs were. It were as if he had a night on the town at Northside like me! Too many horsey-drinks? We didnt know. So, Marks mom hauls him back to the vet on monday (Aug 11) The vet came to the conclusion that whatever he ran into, was such a blunt force that it might have damaged his spinal cord. Or worse, could have chipped a bone in his back. Regardless of the outcome, the treatment was/is the same. Steroids and stall rest/confinement. So, we started the treatment and he gets a tad better.

Couple of days go by and he is having trouble getting up off the ground from laying down.

I called the vet today and he says to leave him alone for a month. There are several possibillities with him at the moment but here is a rundown of what could turn of baby Crash

1) its just a minor spinal injury and he'll eventually be back to normal

2) he could become a wobbler

3) there could be a minor bone chip in the vertebrae

4) there could be a major breakage in there somewhere, which will require surgery or euthanasia

No matter what the outcome, my vet said that teh treatment will start out the same (steroids and rest) He said to wait a month, finish the meds and then bring him back in for x-rays. I feel comfortable with that

I just hope that it is NOT the worse case. It would crush me and Rilee both. I will just hope that if it is the worse case, someone will have the heart to take him and let him live out his life as a pasture ornament, or possible "teaser".

Change the World

How many times have you woke up feeling so good, that you think you can change the world?

I got home from work last night and picked up the kids, went home, worked out then ate dinner with the fam. During dinner, Rilee told me that she was ready to go to bed. WOW! Did I hear my 4 yr old correctly? She wants to go to bed and its barely 8oclock? So, no arguing from me, I finished dinner and put Rilee in the shower. She showers by herself now, shes stepped up to be a "big girl."

She gets out, I get in and do my thing. We put the kids to bed and VOILA! We are in bed at 8:30pm. (might want to put that on the calendar, never happened in the 4 yrs of parenthood)

So, normally my alarm goes off at 5:10am and for, whatever reason, it was set for 5:45am this morning. I wake up in a hurry and paniced because I thought I was going to be late for work. But, I was on time. But I felt so good this morning that on my 40 minute drive to work, all sorts of thoughts ran thru my head of how Im going to change things. I think of the beautiful weather that we are supposed to have this weekend, Rilee's barrel race in Cleburne and just overall life. Now, how can those thoughts just automatically pop in my head in a split second like they did this morning? Im not sure of it, either, but it sure gave me a piece of tranquilty. I hope to have another just like it.

What will give??

I visit FOX4 news every day .. at least every 30 minutes, why might you ask .. I couldnt really tell ya! Maybe to think that the news changes that often? Hoping rain magically will appear? I have no clue .. BUT!

it infuriates me to see on the front page how ANOTHER grandmother can leave her grandchild in the car for 10 FRIGGIN hours to die .. He was 3! How in the heck can you fathom that .. how can you forget that a 3 yr old toddler is sitting in the backseat?

I feel so bad for any family that loses a child over a senseless act ... what will give? when will folks wake up and take care of their responsibility!?!?!


Makes me thank the Good Lord above that I am responsible enough to tend to my kiddos and have the blessing of them being in my life everyday!

God is Great!!

Im BAAACK

I know Jenn has been wanting me to start blogging again, so here goes.


I started a new job a month or so ago. So I will have more "free" time to actually concentrate on blogging. Ill try to talk about everything and lifes daily occurrences.

this ones for Jennifer~ muahh

So, its been what, a month and a half since my last post?

What have I been up to? Im sure you have been asking that for awhile now.

Back in October, I took a job working at the same company as my husband. Barnett Well Services. Its a wonderful place to work and I love going there everyday. Ive been making decent money (although Id like a raise) and it has allowed me to buy myself (with help from my great hubby) a new saddle and a used (like new) trailer. We've borrowed trailers and Ive borrowed hubbys saddles for so long now and we are due something nice for ourselves.
I dont have much else to say right now .. Im WAY too tired even though I did get off work at 4:30

a Happy post!

THis is a happy post because I had TWO pitchers of beer at Hooters for a celebration dinner for my NEW JOB!!!

Just wanted to say to Jennifer .... I LOVE YOU and keep your head up! It will all work out in the end .. just keep that in mind

Do you hear that?

Its peace and quiet!

My kids are away for the afternoon so I can clean and get some things done ... dont know which is worse .. cleaning or kids screaming all day?! lol

Ok, so 2nd day went off track!

Ok, so I went off my diet today. I had a great chocolate slim fast shake for lunch and for dinner .. well, lets just say, I stuffed my face at Posados ... and I mean literally .. Jennifer had to wipe crap off my chin! I didnt even know it was there


I didnt get to walk either because we got home so late .. and Jennifer is sitting in traffic on 35 because of a wreck .. dont know what happened there. I just know shes okay! and wasnt involved .. just stuck in traffic.

come on cold front!!!

Ok, so we are supposed to go to the fair on saturday. YAY for Rilee . Anyhow, the cold front is coming in slower than they expected but, surely itll be here by saturday, right?

Anyone already been to the fair and can give us some *must see* things?

Why?

Why do I have to be so honest?
Why does it have to be so brutal?
Why does it have to hurt people?
Why cant my mouth just shut ..
or my fingers quit typing?!


I have a problem with voicing my opinion, no matter how honest it is. Most people cant handle that and think that I am a b**** because of it.

I believe people get the wrong impression of me and dont really get to know the *real* me

Jennifer Abbott is who inspires me!!

Jennifer is who inspired me to start blogging .. shes an amazing person .. Happy Belated birthday!!


check out her blog at http://www.runhorserun.blogspot.com

My day today .. maybe its my kick starter motivation

ok, so my daughter, Rilee was in her second NBHA today. She is in the pee wee's. She normally wants her daddy to help but he is gone to work a college rodeo in Uvalde. (God we miss him!)

but we had mema and papa there to video and of course, when we got home I had to watch the video. It just makes me sick to look at myself. So tonight I started a diet and walked around the block twice. Im going to try and at least make 2 laps everynight that I can.

soo .. Ive just got to have a bragging moment right now. and kind of a "confession" time for me, I guess you could say. Ive got feelings that I need to say about my husband but for some reason, its very hard for me to express to him. The only feelings I can freely express are angry/crabby ones

I love my husband very much. And you dont know how selfish I feel for saying that due to one of my best friends going through some ruff times. But I dont think I could ever make it without Mark, no matter how much or how little we differ. We do have our differences, what couple doesnt, but for the most part Mark and I are soo much alike. I am very proud of him and I just beam with pride! I do not feel complete without him. He is a great father and is the bestest friend I own. (or have, lol)

I just feel like sometimes I am letting him down in some way. I want to make him the happiest man alive and I feel like I fail terribly.

So, part of my reason for starting this blog is so Mark can check it and see how or what I feel. I have a problem with verbally showing emotion when it comes to my problems. I know thats hard to believe for some of my friends but, what the hay .. whatever works, right?!

Alright .. givin my hand at it!

Ok, so after reading Jenn's blogs .. I finally came to the conclusion that blogging might be my own free therapy. It will give me a chance to jot down feelings and thoughts at the moment ... and that will help me "feel" like Ive gotten some much needed stuff lifted off my shoulders.

sooo, bare with me .. Im no professional blogger by any means .. but here goes nothing!

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